i've been so fucking depressed
fighting with my dad (long long long story)
with my sister (obviously)
food... fucking food
i had a dog O, and he died a few months ago... i was fucking depressed cause he was with me for about 12 years. And now my other dog W... my dad bought him a month after he
bought O. and now W is really really sick i think he is a little older than O like 2 months... i don't wanna lose him, really :( i dunno if you understand if you've ever had a dog you cared a lot about... he's so old but still so lovely i don't wanna go through it all again... it still hurts that O isn't with me anymore...
Another thing... my BF C just came back from miami and she'll go back on january and she told me she wants to stay in the US she wants to study there and blah blah though she'd rather go to switzerland cause she has like free education there cause her parents are swiss and blah blah blah... she's already make her decision i think... those are her two options... i dunno what i'm gonna do without her:'( i mean i still have F but i dunno... they're different in some ways i dunno if you get the point... anyway that will fucking hurt!
and now there's this guy in my math course who i really REALLY like... he is soo cute, i mean he is not super HOT... he's just cute... at least i like him... and he is so nice! we've spoken only a few times... but only about stupid homework... and you know oh i don't understand do you? silly stuff... and well i don't know if i've mentioned how silly and clumsy i get when i like someone... words never come out right... it becomes harder to speak properly... etc etc. So yeah... story of my life... he doesn't give a fuck about me... never will.
fighting with my dad (long long long story)
with my sister (obviously)
food... fucking food
i had a dog O, and he died a few months ago... i was fucking depressed cause he was with me for about 12 years. And now my other dog W... my dad bought him a month after he
bought O. and now W is really really sick i think he is a little older than O like 2 months... i don't wanna lose him, really :( i dunno if you understand if you've ever had a dog you cared a lot about... he's so old but still so lovely i don't wanna go through it all again... it still hurts that O isn't with me anymore...
Another thing... my BF C just came back from miami and she'll go back on january and she told me she wants to stay in the US she wants to study there and blah blah though she'd rather go to switzerland cause she has like free education there cause her parents are swiss and blah blah blah... she's already make her decision i think... those are her two options... i dunno what i'm gonna do without her:'( i mean i still have F but i dunno... they're different in some ways i dunno if you get the point... anyway that will fucking hurt!
and now there's this guy in my math course who i really REALLY like... he is soo cute, i mean he is not super HOT... he's just cute... at least i like him... and he is so nice! we've spoken only a few times... but only about stupid homework... and you know oh i don't understand do you? silly stuff... and well i don't know if i've mentioned how silly and clumsy i get when i like someone... words never come out right... it becomes harder to speak properly... etc etc. So yeah... story of my life... he doesn't give a fuck about me... never will.
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Aww no, sweetie! I absolutely understand about the dog thing :'( You have a right to be pessimistic with what you've had to deal with lately. We are here for you and love you, don't forget! xoxoxo
ResponderEliminarmatilda ...
ResponderEliminari am still here!
I'll read your last posts now. I want to know how you've been!
dont give up, you hear me?
xxx
eeek! sounds like you are having a tough time babydoll! =( do what you need to do to make you feel good because you are the only one that can do that. ask that boy for his number =) its cute how youre so shy. dont beat -yourself- up cuz things are out of your control.. and thats what it looks like you are doing. =( cheer up honey <3
ResponderEliminar:( we all get down. no one can expect you to be 100 % happy all the time. Just hang in there. We're here for you
ResponderEliminarhope things start turning around
Ah Tilda .. I am so sorry I didn’t comment sooner! Sounds like you had quite a shitty time. But I hope things are getting better.
ResponderEliminarSorry about your dog. I have had like 30 pets myself and I know what it’s like, losing a pet. Horrible. But I hope he turns out to be okay.
Also I am sorry about your BF. But that’s just the way it goes … unfortunately. You’ll have to get used to it. People leave all the time.
You know what the good thing is, though? You can always visit them. So think of it as a free vacation place. Haha.
Oh coooooooooome ooooooooon you’ll talk to that guy in your math course! Haha. Don’t be scared. You are amazing and sweet for all I know, so just talk to him :)
Xoxox
I missed you!
i know what it feels. i used to have two dogs..the female died like 6 months ago n i really loved her so much. I still have the male but is too old and will probably die in just a few months :(
ResponderEliminari'm so sorry to hear about your bf C leaving..that happens all the time don't worry you're going to be fine
i think you should really try something with that guy in your math course. i sound clumsy too when speaking with someone i like xD
Take care