Nads!!!

fucking awesome!! harry potter is the shit!!!! :D and whaat? harry potter and the deathly hallows, translated within less that 48 hours?????? i bet you guys didn't sleep!! but awesome!!!

And OMGOSH that would fucking cool!! and yup my dad kinda owns a hotel... but not really.. hahaha i mean it has just been finished, like built. So i was helping him make the beds, clean... the thing is my grandma used to live there, and a abut 8 months ago my dad started this new "project" ....decided to rebuild the house and make a hotel, so my grandma went to live with one of my aunts. So an architect made like a whole new design... it was going to be really small, and the original design was a two stories hotel. But in this fucking town (well it's actually a really pretty place but still fuck it! haha) there are stupid laws that say you cannot build a two stories house, hotel or whatever... cause it's to like "preserve" the "colonial" style of the town... kinda complicated to explain haha. So they didn't let him build a second storey... which made the hotel even SMALLER! douchebag.. anyway... and now my grandma was like oh i wanna go back to my house blah blah.... and my dad had to give her one of the rooms in the "hotel".. so it all kinda screwed up. I mean the hotel thingy is still on, but it's gonna be so so sooooo fucking small... i told my dad to like put the hotel plan on hold, but he said that it's still gonna happen, he'll just have to wait a while, and maybe he'll be able to win over these douchebags that lead that fucking kinda organization that makes those fucking laws.. i'm not sure really. Meanwhile he and my mom will make this kinda restaurant. Also small, they'll have only like 4 or 5 dishes to choose from. It's gonna be chinese. Yup i'm a mixture of latin, chinese and according to my dad spanish too!

So my point up there was that YES it would fucking awesome!!! too bad the hotel isn't ready yet... though i think we're REALLY far i mean, Europe... America... but if ever there's a chance for you to come here, you are sooo welcome!! and we would totally do al that stuff you said! :) i'll tell you exactly where i live when i find you online! haha you know how paranoid i am! lol

too much to do, too little time! sowies!

hii! i don't have much time, there's a few things i'd like to tell you about right now (nothing important really, so don't have high expectations haha) but i have only like 15 minutes cause i gotta go help my dad at the hotel. Just wanted to share with you this thingy i found. :) love you all!

Low calorie diet

Low calorie diets work on the simple principle that calories give us fuel for all the activities and functions our bodies undertake. Therefore, if you reduce calories to less than the body requires, it will burn fat to replace them.

How to Start a Low Calorie Diet

• Equip yourself with a calorie counter
  Nowadays there are many books and publications with information on the calories contained in all kinds of food, both natural and ready meals. There is also extensive information online.
• Work out how many calories you are going to eat each day.
  
• Get into the habit of reading the labels on food
  Many include the number of calories. Check whether the figure quoted is per pack, or by weight, or per portion.
• Work out which foods you can enjoy on your diet
  Read your calorie counter and and stay within your calorie limits. It might help to work out a menu for the first week or two.
• Keep a food diary
  It is so easy to say "Low calorie diets don't work for me" or "I can't lose weight, it must be my metabolism (or glands)" when the simple truth is that you forget to count the doughnut you had for elevenses or the icecream you ate to cool down and maybe the bar of chocolate you had because you were feeling a bit depressed. Take your food diary around with you and write down every single thing you eat, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant. Then, at the end of the first week, examine it carefully. Remember YOU are the one who wants or needs to lose weight so, if you cheat, you are only cheating yourself.
• Use a smaller plate than usual
  It will make you feel less deprived and stop you putting too much food on your plate when serving out meals.
• Don't feel guilty if you don't 'clean your plate'
  There are worse crimes than not eating everything you are served.
• If you are eating fewer calories than your body needs so forcing it to burn fat, you are inevitably going to feel hungry. Additionally, your stomach is probably accustomed to large portions. Eating smaller amounts is not going to satisfy you until your stomach becomes used to the new regime. You just have to grit your teeth and live through the hunger pangs. If they are really unbearable, eat some fruit. Just tell yourself that if you are hungry, your body is being forced to burn some fat so you will lose weight.
• Don't make yourself a martyr, it's boring for other people and you set yourself up for failure.
• Don't beat yourself up and then give up your diet when you succumb to temptation. First of all, it is the total calories consumed over a period of time - a week, a month - that determine whether you lose weight. Second, if you come off the diet because you ate a forbidden bar of chocolate or doughnut, you certainly won't lose weight. Forgive yourself and take note of the circumstances and try to avoid putting yourself in that situation again.
• A calorie controlled diet is an ideal opportunity to reform your eating habits. Because you can eat almost anything you like as long as you don't exceed your calorie allowance, you can work out a diet that you would be happy to continue, with somewhat increased portions, when you reach your target weight. This is essential because it was your old eating habits that led to weight gain.

fucking dirty mouth! lol

heyy everyone.. how you all doing Im good I guess… but FIRST.. I forgot.. NADS you like harry potter? I read you were gonna use part of your money for the harry potter movie or something like that right? Hahahah I don’t know why im even asking… why im making it public … I am a harry potter geek! Always been.. since I read the first book when I was like 12 lol :P yup im all stoked about harry potter and the half blood prince premier! Haha : ) aaaanyway.

Okay… I fasted for 3 days in a row, FUCKING AWESOME right? Haha … on the fourth day I fasted until 7:30pm … fuck, me and jt went for a cup of coffee. I tried to focus on my fasting thingy and drank only a cup of coffee, while he had a piece of chocolate cake (I was fucking dyiiing inside let me tell you… i wanted to eat that shit so baad! Lol but fucking didn’t ;) yeah im awesome… haha) soo he told me about his new girlfriend, that they fight too much… she’s too jealous blah blah… , I told him about my umm… well my life’s been pretty dullish lately so I only listened… haha so we we were on our way back to my house and we found some friends, they were going to have a few beers… and invited us… and I was like HECK NOOO! No no fucking way… but they won me over… haha we got there and we started drinking : ( fuck fuck fuck. (Im one of those who gets drunk REAL FAST! :$) haha yup I got wasted .. and ate… yup i ate nachos… and drank like.. tons of beer… fucking awful!! :( that was yesterday… and today I woke up with a fucking headache! and feeling fucking FAT. And I just ate a bowl of white rice… I was fucking hungry Im sorry… im stupid and fat!But you know what… fuck it! I failed okay, im stupid okay… but tomorrow’s another day and I WILL start this fast thingy … again, I mean on my first try I could do it for 3 days… well now on my 2nd time it'll be for 6 days right! The important thing is NEVER giving fucking up !! :)oh fuck I gotta go my mom’s calling.

I just noticed I say fuck a lot… haha but I’m still classy! ;) fuck yeah!! lol

wise words........ day 1 - Fasting

holly shit!!! gurls listen to me... well read me.. haha DON'T ... EVER... EVER drink three laxative teas a night before a hectic day at college! you are going to regret it...! im a dutchbag, believe me... i had an AWFUL day at college... my tummy ached sooooooooooooo fucking bad! and well... i went to the fucking toilet like... a thousand times... how embarrasing!!.... so my advice to you... if you're planning on drinking 3 laxative teas ... do it ONLY if you know you're gonna be home for about 24 hours!

so i started fasting today... aaaanddd *drumsdrumsdrums* *drumsdrumsdrums* *drumsdrumsdrums*... SUCCESS! nothing, not a thing!!! only drank TONS of water and a diet coke! oh my ... i feel A W E S O M E!

*sigh* ohh and today my mom gave me cookies for my "noon snack".. so i was in class and it thought of giving it away... so i asked a girl who was sitting next to me if she wanted a cookie... and she said YESS THANK YOU! (of course she's skinny and pretty) but my friend B who was sitting on the desk behind me... and listened that i was giving it away... and he said this exact words " FUCK MATILDA! EAT THAT SHIT! STOP GIVING YOUR FOOD AWAY... UNLESS YOU WANNA GET SICK AND DIE!!!" :( i ignored him.... didn't even turn and tell him something... i simply ignored him... but he made me feel awful :( i mean he doesn't understand...

At 5 pm L and i went to B's house to prepare for a stupid presentation we have tomorrow... and we were writing some shit when L received a call.... i dunno who was it, but he/she asked L who she was with ... and L said "with B and Matilda!" and i suppose he/she asked L who i was, cause L said "matilda, my friend... the pale skinned one ...... noo she's thin.... oh yeah not anymore, she's kinda thin now" . I felt kinda "good" but... not so much... cause i know im not thin and i hate it when people say ooh c'mon you're thin!! i mean they are lying! I HAVE EYES AND MIRRORS...!!! but fuck it... i'd better not listen to them, cause i might end up believing it! im not gonna accept "im thin" until the mirror and my eyes tell me I AM! so i m not gonna make a fuss about it! anyway...

ps. and i am soo happy cause bryanna and diente de leon are back!!! haha i missed reading your blogs gurls!!! :) and thannnk youuu journeytoperfection, for all your comments and support! :) you're like my twin!! lol our goals always coincide! and now we're are going to fast! yayy you can do it girl! :) love ya all!! <3>

am i going to hell? lol... ME AGAINST THE WORLD!! :D

so i was on facebook... watching pictures... and i saw this two BITCHES i hatee!! i noticed how they've gained weight... like they used to be this super skinny pretty girls... and now they're all chubby but like really CHUBBY! their arms and legs! and they've got tummy... YUP.. not even a cute tummy! nooo big tummy with disgusting rolls!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH i'm not a mean girl... but that just made me smile!! hahahahah i know i know... i couldnt resist giggling... i mean they deserve it! hahahahah.. .omg does that make me a bad person? hmmm hahahahaha dont you enjoy that? i mean, when people you hate become fat?? god im going to hell...! lols

have you read i will be size 0? OMGOSH! she has lost 4 kilos, and has been fasting for 6 days!!!!! isnt that AWESOME! i'm so jealous!!! but she has inspired me!! i mean it is possible! how is it possible that i can hardly even fast for 1 day!!! i mean I CAN DO THIS! i WILL do it!! im gonna be fasting tomorrow... and the next day... and the next day... and the next day... etc... i mean i got EVERYTHING i need...

1. i leave home to college at 5:30 pm (zZz i know!) ... which means... NO BREAKFAST! cause my mom wont make me eat.
2. classes finish at 1:30 pm... and i dont even go home, cause i go directly to the gym after that!
   
3. i go back home at about 3:30 or 4:00pm
4. i tell my mom i ate at college
5. she believes me
6. Sometimes i sleep or if i have hw i do it
7. i watch tv
8. read a book
9. listen to music
10. My mom doesn't make me have dinner, i mean she doesn't really care about dinner, cause she thinks i always make something to eat.
11. I'll still have to go to the kitchen and make something, just so i dont raise suspicious.
12. I WILL throw it all away.
13. then i go online... and after that i'm off to bed! ...
    
14. feeling SUPERCALIFRAGILISTICEXPIALIDOCIOUS!!! hahaha (did i got that right?

so yeah! that's it! anyone with me??? :) im gonna do it!! IM GONNA FAST as long as it takes me to get where i want! no more ... okay i had 300 cals... 500 cals... that's not too much! ... well pardon me, but IT IS!! it is TOO MUCH! it's gonna be 0 cals or 0 cals! no 10, no 100, NO 700! food is for stupid, fat and ugly people! do i wanna be stupid fat and ugly? NO NO FREAKING WAY! so i gotta stop being a dutchbag! no more "ooh i haven't the strength!" because i do! YOU DO... we all do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

i'm going to the beach!

hey sweethearts! so me and some friends are planning a beach trip in two week!! im kinda exited... kinda bcuz i dont want them to see my fat looks! :( boohoo.. ... anyway here's some bikini thinspo

fairy tales, princess without a prince... story of my life...

hello sweetys...

i understand how you're afraid of a mirror. As you, i cant even look...well this isnt curvy enough and that isnt flat yet!... i understand how you're afraid of the summer, june worries me like it worries you, who are we kidding? if in the end no one can escape time, who has ever been happy trying to be "liked"? Life wont wait... i understand how irritating the new commercial is, it upsets me too, that supermodel thanking her beauty to a yogurt, and you... well nothing fits you... i understand you're confused, im confused all the time. That last bite switches on that guilt you're trying to hide. and that piece of chocolate that win over you, i understand you're confused, im confused all the time... in this tale the princess isnt woken up by a kiss. You, the princess...you hide in your palace, dreaming... you're a princess without a prince... and your tale has no fairy... you're under your own spell... are you looking for your happy ending? cause i am too... you're a princess but you lack the look, you're missing a tiara... i understand... im a princess too...