the notebook review hahaha <3

first day of college went great! :) also detox diet day 2 GREAT! :) i'm happy!! and yes i've started reading the notebook and it is SOO GOOD! it's a bit different from the movie, as always, but i'm loving it! it's soo romantic! I'm in the middle right now, she's visiting noah (for the house thingy) after 14 years....and they spent all day talking, reminiscing, they cooked crab and veggies, he had a beer she drank tea. She's engaged, it hurts him to think about it... It's soo good cause it describes how they're feeling, and she wants to kiss him... she feels she is falling in love with him, again. He never stopped loving her and he wants to make love to her but he knows he can't, she's engaged. And Allie is trying so hard to stop her impulses cause she knows it would be "wrong", but at the same time she's thinking how Lon, her fiance, has never made her feel the way she felt that summer she spent with noah. And deep inside she knows NO ONE will ever make her feel that way... that's what i've read so far i'm on page 81! i think i'll finish reading it by the end of the weekend! :) it's really good.

"But at that moment she still wasn't completely aware of it, and she turned to face him. She reached over and touched his hand, hesitantly, gently, amazed that after all these years he'd somehow known exactly what she'd needed to hear. When their eyes locked, she once again realized how special he was.
And for just a fleeting moment, a tiny wisp of time that hung in the air like fireflies in summer skies, she wondered if she was in love with him again."

hi hi hi! :)

hii! okay finally got the time to explain... my dad went to the hotel and asked what was going on with me? he asked if i was okay? if i wanted to leave the house? and i told him that i was okay... that i only needed some time alone blah blah and he was like okay i understand but remember i love you and whatever you need you just tell me okay ? fuckkkk he ripped off my heart :( he's so nice i couldn't bare letting him go so i went back home with him hahaha i'm weak! hahahah :) but i'm okay i realized i was only running away from my issues... which is very very stupid cause my "issues" come with me wherever i go! haha so yeah i'm back! finallyyy! :D:D i missed you!

Detox diet day 1 went on perfect!! :) i'm hoping to lose 8 pounds!! *crossing fingers*. After i finish the detox diet i'll try to fast! :) College starts tomorrow! boo :( i don't wanna wake up early :'( but nah i'll be able to fast! so yay for that!

have you watched the notebook. the movie? okay it's one of my favorite movies. I went to a book fair and saw a white book with the title

THE NOTEBOOK
Nicholas Sparks
A Novel

i immediately grabbed it and OMG it was the book!! i didn't know it was based on a book! i was thrilleddd.. i soo had to buy it haha it was actually really cheap... $ 4.00 it's a bit old and dirty but i don't care!! i started reading it yesterday and omgosh it's a page turner it's soooo sweet!!!! <3 i want a love like that one you know.. so fucking strong that after 14 years he still thinks of you... and you still think of him too <3 nawwwwwwwww how sweet!!!!

ugh i gotta go my mom's calling love you all!!
xoxo

detox diet

hi! my sister-in-law send me this diet. Her doctor gave it to her and she lost 4 pounds in the first 5 days!! :) i'm starting it tomorrow and i already told my mom so she won't make me eat! :D yay

day 1

B: eat normally except tea, coffee, bread, cereals, pasta.
L: salad
D: salad and fruit

Days 2, 3, 4

B: Orange juice and fruit
L: fruit
D: fruit

Days 5, 6, 7

B: Fruit
L: salad
D: vegetables

Days 8, 9, 10

B: fruit
L: salad
D: chicken, fish

Allowed fruits: apple, pineapple, grapes, papaya and watermelon
Allowed vegetables: carrots, cauliflower, broccolli

Also every night you have to drink lemon water or orange water without sugar.
You can add lemon, salt or O.J. to the salads.

i'm back...

back home... not glad about it but nah! i'll explain later i need some sleep! byebye! xoxo i hope you missed me!! :) hehe

i'm leaving...

hi sweethearts i don't have much time... i just came home to pick up some jeans... i'm not back yet. I'll stay at the hotel another week or two more i can't tell yet. I wrote those two posts sunday 19th and girls confessions on my cousins laptop and saved them in my mail so i could just copy paste them here... it's been kind of a good week... not really. I dunno, yesterday i saw my sister for the first time since last week... and well she hasn't change, fuck her... fuck i gotta go i miss you! :( i promise to come back with good news next time... pinky promise! :) love you love you

i'm a fat cow... that's all i have to say. I love you girls!! Don't forget about me please.

Girl Confessions ... get to know me haha

1. Do you sleep in your bra?
nope

2. Do you sleep with socks on?
only when it's really cold!!

3. Would you rather sleep alone or with someone else?
someone else!

4. Do you enjoy drama?
i hate drama!

5. Are you a girly girl?
yup :)

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
my bf C

7. Small or large purses?
HUGE!!

8. Are you short?
no, i'm not tall either but i ain't short haha

9. Do you like somebody?
yes!! but he doesn't know and i seriously doubt he likes me :(

10.Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy?
hahaha no! that's stupid

11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
gosh yes, i'm a neat freak!!!

12. Do you think you’re conceited?
nope

13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
no, i only wear pretty masks ;)

14. Are you double jointed?
no?

15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
on a bench at a park with my friends haha

16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
no haha

17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
i hope not

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
my professors

19. How many guys will read this just because it says- Girl Confessions?
i think no guy will read this

[x] i do wear make up.
[x] I have cried at a movie theater.
[ ] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[x] I get jealous.
[yes! he's gorgeous] I think Johnny Depp is sexy
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ]I like death/grind/black metal.
[ ]I like rap.
[x] like techno
[ ] like country
[x] I carry a purse.
[x] i'd be lost without my computer.
[] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[x] I own a boy band CD.
[ ] I get bored watching football.
[ ] Think guys are confusing
[x] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.


Come on ladies, be truthful!

1. What color is the bra your wearing?
Black

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
both!

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
haha yes

4. What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?
make me laugh :)

5. Do you have a best friend?
i have two bf

6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yeah kind of, but now i wonder why the heck... haha

7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
yes

8. Do you like your life?
sometimes, it could be better though

10. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boy from you?
nope and i hope it NEVER happens!

11. Have you ever jumped into a pool with your clothes on?
i was pushed but it was fun! haha

12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
girls

13. How long have you had a Facebook?
i dunno like 2 years i think

14. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
yup, but he asked me to, haha we were just goofing around

15. What are your biggest fears?
food and worms hahahah

16. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yes :(

17. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
oh man yes

18. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater?"
heck yeah!! they may change but you'll never trust them even though you say you will... so girls don't be silly. He cheated on you, leave him, go get a better one! ;)

19. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
yes

20. Do you ever wish you were famous?
nope!

21. Are you currently missing someone?
yes :(

THIS GUY OR THAT GUY? PICK ONE

Cowboy or Gangster?
cowboy

Preppy or Punk/Goth?
preppy!

Face or Body?
Ooh tough one. I'd say face, body don't really care... just as long as he isn't fat! :)

Good cook or take you out a lot?
take me out a lot

Sweet or Sexy?
both, even better if he's got a little bad boy in him hahahaha

Armani or Abercrombie?
don't care

Contacts or Glasses?
it depends, some guys look good with glasses... some don't!

DO IT, its a girl survey.

01. Eyeliner or Mascara?
BOTH!!

02. Louis vuitton or dooney & bourke
dooney & bourke

03. American eagle or Hollister?
both both both!!

04. Pumps or flats?
oh c'mon i love them both!

05. Skirts or pants?
pants, if i had slim legs it would be skirts... but obviously i don't ...so pants

06. Socks or leggings?
none

07. Hoodies or jackets?
god!! this is too hard... both!

08. Heels or sneakers?
BOTH!

10. Hoop or dangling earrings?
dangling earrings

11.Do you think your pretty, honestly?
i'm fat, do i need to say more?

12.Boots or Flip Flops?
flip flops

13. White or black?
white

14. Victoria’s secret or bath and body works?
Victoria's secret

15. Smoothies or lattes?
latte

16. Diet or regular sodas?
diet always!!

17. Water or daiquiris?
oh man... i love daiquiri but i hate the clas in it

18. Pearls or diamonds?
diamonds!!!!!!

19. Lemonade or iced tea?
iced tea

20. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen?
both!!

21. Will you get drunk when you celebrate your birthday of this question number?
heck yeah!

22. iPod or cell phone?
ipod

23. Friends or family?
oh don't make me choose i love them both, can't live without them

24. Lip gloss or lip stick?
lip stick

25. Manicure or pedicures?
peidcures

26. Would you rather shop with one best friend or go bowling with lots of friends?
go bowling with lots of friends

27. Tank tops or beaters?
tank top

28. Tiffany’s or Chanel?
chanel

29. love or peace?
peace and love

30. Sunglasses or purses?
purses

IN A GUY...

Funny or Serious?
both, there's gotta be a balance

Romantic or Daredevil?
oh tough tough.... daredevil with a little romance haha

Dark Eyes or Light Eyes?
don't care as long as they're pretty

Long Hair or Short Hair?
not too long!! short and medium ;)

Curly Hair or Straight Hair?
awwww curls drive me crazy!! But i like straight too

Clean-cut or Rough?
both hahah!!

Basketball Player or Football Player?
football player

Smoker or Non-smoker?
non-smoker please

Drunk or Sober?
sober

Druggie or Clean?
CLEAN

Has a Motorcycle or Has a Sports Car?
sports car, not that i really care about that but i don't like motorcycles ... too noisy!!

Player or Loyal?
LOYAL!

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
hahaha yes

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
see what happens haha

If you ever want to live to see another day, you're forced to snort cocaine, would you do it?
yes! i wanna live a long long long happy life

If you woke up in one of the Saw movies, do you think you could survive?
no... i'd faint hahahaha

When is the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with friends?
on sunday!

On average what do you think you cry about the most?
about how i hate my fat body

Who was the last guy you talked to?
d.e.

Do you think best friends can be replaced?
no!!

Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot?
i dunno ...really

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
yup

What friends do you tell the most?
c, f and mt

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
C :)

Where's the weirdest place you've changed clothes?
um... in a car?

Are you going anywhere next summer?
i wanna go to the US but i dunno

Are you waiting for anyone's call or text right now?
nope

Are you shy?
sometimes haha i'm weird ...

Are you talkative?
oh yes!

Do you secretly like someone?
lol, yup!

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
yes, but when i got too much going on in my head or heart the ones who really really really know me notice.

How is life going for you right now?
could be better

Do you trust people easily?
nope

Do you give out second chances easily?
nope

Do you smile a lot?
all the time! :D

One thing you're looking forward to.
finish college and travel the world!!

How do you feel about change?
ooh i've learned to deal with it

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
haha yup

Are you happy?
not as happy as i'd like to be

Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself?
depends on my mood

Sunday 19th

back from the beach... i had the best time!! I didn't swim even though we had a pool there... but i danced! and got wasted... there's a few moments i barely even remember haha it was awesome :) I'm at the hotel. I had to go home pick up some clothes for the week and i decided to weigh ... and 61 kilos... FML. I'm sure i had lost a few pounds but this weekend oh my... We ate so fucking much! and drank beer, margaritas, tequila, smirnoffs which has... let's just say A LOT of cals! So i can't complain. It's MY fault. Stupid me. aaanyway... I'm not gonna let this bring me down! I will do this for ME and with a special dedication to Nads, xthinforever, Stickthin! (how sweet is that uh? :P)

This is will happen in a period of two months, i know i can lose more but i'll go along with this for now :)

start -> 135 lb - 61 kilos
need 2 lose -> 16 lb - 7 kilos
goal -> 119 lb - 54 kilos
starting july 20
ending sep 20
69 days
0.231 lb - 0.101 kg /per day