sitting, waiting, wishing

Gosh! well yesterday i did well :) as well as today... but that doesn't really help my shitty self-esteem, i have NO patience i wanna be skinny perfect & beautiful NOW!! ugh ugh! i effing hate myself, my arms, my HUGE disgusting belly, my legs are soooooooooooooooooo fat! my face! omgoshhhhhh. I always try to be positive butt goshhh how the heck you do that when you look like Fiona from Shrek? ... anyway i found this diet called the Milk's Diet i'll start tomorrow... haha i can never finish one diet, i know... i get bored really fasssstt!!! Milk's Diet

• 1 day:6 cups of milk
• 2 day : 4 cups of milk + 2 fruits
• 3day: 2 cups of milk + 2 fruits + cheese
  

• 4 day : 4 cups of milk + 1 fruit +1 piece of some meat(i'm a veggie so no meat for me! :P)
  
• 5 day : 2 cups of milk + 2 fruit +1 piece of some meat +1egg (again no meat or eggs for me)
  
• 6day: 2cups of milk + 1 fruit +1 piece of some meat +1egg +chesee
• 7day: 3 cups of milk + 3 fruit
• 8day: 2 cups of milk + 1 fruit +1 piece of some meat + cheese

haha k... so i guess for me it'll be only milk, fruit & cheese!